Where I am Meant to be

6 months.  Half a year.  182.5 days.  I cannot believe my baby girl is at this point already! Life at home with 2 kids can drag on at times but on the other hand, it has absolutely flown by.  I blinked and Ava is more than halfway to a year!

 I feel like it was just yesterday that we were taking Ava home from the hospital.  She was this squishy newborn that intimidated the heck out of me. After 2 years, I felt like I had this parenting thing down.  Then, this 6 pound 12ounce little girl made me feel like a nervous first time mom all over again.  It was a learning curve for both of us, but I think we figured it out.

Life has been a montage of firsts with her- first bath, first trip down the shore, first time sitting up, the first laugh, the first tooth- and with every first I feel a sense of pride yet sadness because I know that it means she is getting that much older.

My husband and I are at odds over whether Ava will be our last.  I pray she isn't but in the back of my mind, I know that there is a distinct possibility that these are my "last firsts" so I am trying to soak them all in.
For some reason, this 6 month milestone has hit me hard in the nostalgia department.  I can't believe how fast her life has gone by.  I can't believe how fast my life as a mom has gone by!  I feel like it was just yesterday that I was excited yet scared out of my mind to find out I was pregnant with Ryan.
 My whole life, I have admittedly looked forward to that next step- graduating high school, graduating college, buying a home, getting married, even waiting for the next season to come- but for the first time in my life, I am completely content with where I am.  My kids have taught me that right here and right now, is exactly where I am meant to be.

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