Stitch Fix Unboxing #5 & Giveaway

Walking up to my Stitch Fix box sitting there waiting for me on the porch is possibly my favorite thing in the world! I don't think I can get my kids in the house fast enough so that I can tear it open and see what I got!

In Fix #5, I asked for a warm cardigan because I am always freezing, a couple casual tops and something I can wear on Thanksgiving.  My stylist, Lisa, took my wishes into account and sent me a really fun box that I am taking all the time I have before I have to send it back to decide what I am keeping!
Let's get to the fun!

Staccato Endino Dolman Knit Top- This top is super casual and long in the back, which I love for wearing with leggings.  The material is really soft and I am a huge fan of the dolman style.  Still, I only keep pieces I love and don't feel like I love it enough to spend money on it.
Staccato Endino Dolman Knit Top

RD Style Colton Marled Knit Cardigan- Winters where I live can be freezing and my husband and I have the eternal debate of me turning the thermostat up and him turning it back down.  This cardigan is incredibly cozy and warm.  I love that it has really long sleeves and pockets.  I paired it with leggings and my new Bear Paw boots from Amazon and envision myself reading a book and sipping hot chocolate while wearing it (with 2 small kids who am I kidding?). However, I don't think it is the most fashionable or flattering item so I am torn.  I will update this review once I return things but as of now, I am completely undecided and am split 50-50 keep or return. 

RD Style Colton Marled Knit Cardigan
Verdict: Undecided

Le Lis Borjon Pocket Knit Top-  My absolute favorite in the fix!  I am so in love that I wore it on a date with my husband the night I got it!  It is SO soft and comfortable.  It is structured yet flowy, which I love.  The back of the shirt is solid black, which I think adds a fun element with the stripes on the front.  I paired it with my Just Black skinny jeans that I am obsessed with from fix #3 and grey boots.  I love that it can be dressed up or down depending on the occasion.

Le Lis Borjon Pocket Knit Top
Verdict: Kept

Skies are Blue Tiffany Shoulder Detail Knit Top- I debated back and forth about this one.  It is funny because at first it was a complete no but then I wore it for 5 minutes while I ran downstairs and it really grew on me.   It grew on me even more when I paired it with my Just Black skinnies and a pointed toe shoe! I love the knit pattern and the gold detail is so simple but adds interest.  It is a thicker material but is shaped at the waist so it is really flattering.  Still, I have a million solid black shirts and it wouldn't get much use in the cold winter.

Skies are Blue Tiffany Shoulder Detail Knit Top
Verdict: Returned

Market & Spruce Roll Tab Top-  Lisa sent me this top as a possibility to wear on Thanksgiving.  While all the elements that make it a great shirt are there- perfect colors, love the tab sleeves, soft material- it is just not me.  I wouldn't get much use out of it since I am not working but I paired it with work pants and a small heel making it perfect for the office.

Market & Spruce Roll Tab Top
Verdict: Returned

So, there it is!  Stitch Fix #5 is in the books.  While I am only keeping 1 or 2 out of 5 due to budget, I am so happy with this fix.  I love getting my boxes in the mail and with 2 small children, it is SO nice to get fashionable clothes delivered to my door with little effort on my part!

Not familiar with Stitch Fix?  Here's how it works... 
You receive 5 items picked by a personal stylist based on a style profile you complete and Pinterest style board. You keep what you want and return the pieces you don't.  It is $20 to try it, but if you buy something they apply the $20 to your order. It is not a subscription service- you can schedule boxes whenever you want or you can sign up to get them automatically delivered monthly. If you want to try it (warning: you may become obsessed like me!), use my referral link and we will be best friends!

Check out my previous fixes!
Since this is my 5th Stitch Fix and I am feeling fun, I am giving away a $20 Stitch Fix gift card!

Going in Saved His Life- Ryan's Birth Story

February 26 was the first day of my maternity leave.  I was so excited to have a whole month off of work before my March 26 due date.  Nesting had not yet set in so I had big plans of cleaning, organizing, finding a newborn photographer and making last minute preparations for our little guy we would soon name Ryan Alexander.

I woke up that morning and decided to lay in bed since I had a month of relaxation ahead of me.  Ryan was a very active little boy in there so it was strange to me that he wasn't his active self.  Probably just sleeping, I told myself.  I laid on my side while watching the Today show and started to get a little nervous because Ryan ALWAYS bunched up on the other side when I did that.  I felt nothing.  I decided to go make myself a pregnant lady breakfast of pancakes with lots of sugary syrup and juice to get him moving.

After my feast, I returned to my bed to harass Ryan into moving around.  Still no movement.  I got out my home doppler that I hadn't used since the first tri and immediately found his heartbeat.  This made me feel better but I couldn't shake the feeling that something wasn't right.  I tried not to freak out but I am a worry wart and it consumed my thoughts.  I decided the only way to calm my nerves was to call my OB. I was put through to the midwife immediately and she told me to come right over to get monitored.

I got dressed and went to my appointment.  The midwife found the heartbeat right away and gave me a reassuring look.  It helped but not much. She hooked me up to some monitors and left the room.  I played around on my phone a bit then eavesdropped on the people in the room next to me.  I could hear the doppler then laughter. Maybe it's their first appointment, I thought.  It seemed like yesterday that I had my first appointment.  The midwife returned, interrupting my daydream and told me that they wanted to send me to the hospital for a Non-Stress Test to check on the baby.  As I was walking out of the office, I heard my favorite OB yell out of her office to the midwife "tell them to call me if they need me because I am on call today."  I debated turning around and asking if I should call my husband who was 2 hours away for work but I  didn't.  He was busy and I was being paranoid.  I should have turned around.

A non stress test is an ultrasound and monitoring test to measure how the baby is doing.  A nurse set me up and gave me a button to push every time I felt Ryan move. She left and told me to get comfy.  I sat and closed my eyes thinking about what I would get to eat after this appointment.   I gripped the button that I still had yet to press.  My thoughts of a Chipotle burrito were abruptly interrupted as the door burst open and my nurse ran past me to an oxygen tank in the far corner of the room.  I don't think I was prepared or expected my life to change in about 5 seconds.

A doctor approached me and said the words I will never forget "The baby is in extreme distress.  We are taking you up for a c-section right now."  I don't even think I responded because I was so in shock and as I am writing this almost 3 years later, my hands are trembling at the keyboard and I have tears in my eyes.  The nurse was in the corner fumbling with an oxygen tank mask for me as the doctor barked at her "Not now.  Leave it.  We don't have time".  She seemed so flustered as they helped me in the wheelchair that I really started to get freaked out.

The doctor himself ran me to the main part of the hospital while barking questions at me.  After the third "When was the last time you ate?" I realized that HE was panicking and I started to panic.  I called my husband and burst into tears as I said "I am at the hospital. Something is wrong with the baby.  They are bringing me up to do a c-section right now,"  Knowing that not only was my baby not doing well but I would have to go through whatever was about to happen alone was terrifying.

Once we arrived to Labor & Delivery, I was met by 15 people standing around until one announced "She's here!" and all hell broke loose.   Next thing I knew, I was having various nurses undress me, put an IV in, put an oxygen mask over my face, ask me questions, have me sign forms, etc. It was so chaotic. I started to cry and shake bc I was so scared.  A c-section had honestly never entered my mind as how I would give birth and I most certainly envisioned my husband being there.  I think this frantic text to my best friend sums up how I was feeling.

My OB arrived and they rushed me in for the c-section. It was surreal laying there and thinking that 6 hours ago, I thought I had a month to go before I became a mom.  I couldn't believe that all this was happening and as I closed my eyes tight through the pressure of the procedure, I just prayed that my little boy would be ok.  

Ryan was out in record time and I remember asking if he was ok and what was going on.  They kept telling me casually "oh, they're working on him."  I read later in the NICU report that he was unresponsive for the first 7 minutes and "them working on him" was actually them resuscitating my poor baby born blue and limp.  Thankfully, he pinked up and began to cry the tiniest cry I had ever heard. I was a mom!  As they rushed him off to the NICU, they brought him by me to see and give a kiss.  He was tiny, just 4lb 11oz, but perfect!

We learned after Ryan was born that the cord was wrapped very tightly twice around his neck, around his leg and entire body.  He was essentially being strangled inside and was not moving so he could conserve energy.  I am so incredibly thankful that I decided to not feel dumb calling my doctor and went in.  She said to me in the recovery room that I saved his life and if I had waited until the next day "the outcome would have been much different."

Here is our first picture together and the only picture taken the day Ryan was born.  We both look a bit of a mess but I treasure it because it captures the first time I laid eyes on one of the loves of my life!

So, there it is.  The story of the day my Ryan Alexander came into this world.  I generally keep this space on the web pretty light but I think this story is important to share.  As mamas, we have to trust our gut.  Kick counts ARE important and a lack of movement should warrant a call to get checked out. Never feel silly for calling your OB- you are the only voice of your baby!

I am the luckiest mom in the wold to have my energetic, loving Ryan here today!


A Mom's Halloween Reminder

I originally started this blog to document my new life as a stay at home mom.  I was excited yet nervous and wanted to make sure that I had something to look back on.  Somehow, it has morphed into this awesome project that lets me share things I do with my kids, for my home and sometimes for myself (ahem, Stitch Fix). Rarely do I post sentimental things or my feelings but I feel like I have to because I am still on cloud 9!
Halloween was yesterday.  Since Ryan is 2.5, I figured this may be my last chance to decide on a theme for him and Ava so a fireman and a dalmatian it was!  I found the cutest dalmation outfit and fireman raincoat on Amazon. Ryan was absolutely thrilled to put it on.  Not exactly.
As 2 year olds do, he pouted as I took obligatory pictures of the kids on the steps.  I got this adorable picture only because the mailman was walking by and I convinced Ry to show him his hat. Ava just looked perplexed as to why I was putting her in this ridiculous outfit.  It had ears!  I melt!
Apparently there is something about getting candy from random houses that entices 2 year olds to wear whatever for the cause.  Ryan donned his outfit and went sprinting to the first house.  My normally shy guy was saying trick or treat and thanking people for candy like it was no big deal.  After each house, he would excitedly bound towards my husband shouting some variation of "I said trick or treat!  I got candy!" as he took off toward his next house.  My heart melted just watching the sheer joy on his face.
Admittedly, for as long as I can remember, I have wanted to be at that next stage in life.  I always look for the light at the end of whatever craziness is going on at the moment because I am sure better things are ahead. 
However, possibly for the first time in my life, I am exactly where I want to be.  Seeing my child experience his first real trick or treat was something I will remember forever.  Sure there are tantrums, sleepless nights and lots of tears but Halloween was a reminder that all too soon, I won't have that excited little boy running toward me to show me a piece of candy.  Motherhood has done so many things for me but it has really caused me to realize that I need to enjoy every day because all too soon, these are the days I will miss.